11.13.00 - 11:14:04

ok. so certain things have been accomplished. that history paper. my spanish homework. i never do my spanish homework more than an hour before class. this is a very new thing. feels good to have it done. but. see, the thing is, i haven't written the paper that's due in exactly 12 hours. hmmm. when i put it that way, it seems way closer than it did five minutes ago.

but i have an idea. which means the actual writing of the paper will progress smoothly. ani difranco's 'everest' is an extremely sweet song.

so it rained like crazy tonight. i was going to run to the grocery store to get some stuff to bake with, but that plan was foiled by the weather. so i'm going to write my paper, sleep some, and bake in the morning. i'm pretty excited. i have to bake for spanish class. we're bringing recipes. and optional samples. and an excuse to bake, for me, is very exciting. so no option. mandatory baking. then i think i'll make some oatmeal raisin cookies para nosotros. and then tomorrow night i think i might make another one of those cinnamon-chip applesauce coffee cakes. you don't understand how good that stuff is. hilary, if you're reading, i'll pick you up a package of cinnamon chips while i'm at the store. i have not forgotten about the cinnamon chip promise.

but me, i'm feeling pretty good as of now

i'm not so sure when i got here or how

sun melting the fake smile away

i think you know, i'll be ok

that's the eels. grace kelly blues. it's also how i'm feeling right now. it's nice. part of me is thinking, oh, but all the schoolwork you have left in this semester! but see, that was never really a problem. school. because in the end, it's just school, a list of things to do. things that get done. no big deal. maybe a bit stressful at times, but what isn't?

ooh, i have another appt. with jana tomorrow afternoon.

i think i've felt a lot better since formulating my plan for life. a plan for life that i actually think will be a good plan. i'm talking to the study abroad people this week. just to make sure i can graduate when i want and all. i doubt it will be a problem. i think i might want to live in south america when i grow up. maybe in peru. there's lots of poverty and injustice in peru. yeah, i know, there's lots of poverty and injustice here, too, but lately i've just grown rather disenchanted when it comes to america.

the vibe in our apt. at this moment is a good vibe. we all have lots of stuff to get done tonight. we all have busy weeks coming up. but we're all warm and dry and cozy and together and it's nice. i don't understand how people enjoy living on campus. people should live like this as long as possible. it's the best.

now we're listening to belle and sebastian. if you're feeling sinister (go off and see a minister). ok, that just makes me smile. it also makes me think of melissa. i am thinking specifically of your little thing about becoming a nun from a little while ago. i think i just let that slide without commenting. but let me comment here. dude, you are not cut out to be a nun. ok, that's all. especially since i doubt your calling was really very strong. it was probably just your stomach telling you that you're hungry.

ok, it's 11:11. seems as good a time as any to start being productive.

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