11.16.00 - 1:39:48

i'm at work. our dsl at home is down. we are unhappy about this. finished a lotlotlot of reading last night. we are pleased about this. ok, so every time i see the spanish word real, i think it means real for a second and then i remember that it means royal. i wonder if i'll always have that split second. i guess it doesn't really matter, but it's just frustrating to think that your brain's so stubborn. of course, i guess there is that whole thing about how it's the exact same word in english. so if i got my spanish recognition to say royal, i bet i'd have the opposite problem recognizing the word in english. yeah, i guess i'd rather see real first than royal.

today i am filing.

i've decided that it's stupid to mess with other people's small happinesses, even if you are looking out for them in the grand scheme of things. because all that happens is that they resent you for trying to mess up their happiuess and then they pay the consequences willingly and don't ever see how you helped in the grand scheme of things because you didn't. people never take other people's advice when they're right about things because right usually equals unpleasant. and when i've come to realize how little happiness there is in the world, why should i try to keep others from theirs? it's just not a good plan, not in any way. plus, like jana keeps telling me, it's not my responsibility to make sure everyone's on top of things. because it's not. and because i can't. and because it appears that i have enough trouble with myself. so i should work on that first. so i will. the end.

faulkner is good stuff. you know what else is good stuff? massive attack's 'mezzanine.' i think it's their best album. my favorite songs are tracks 3 and 6. i listened to it straight through twice while i was reading last night and it was lovely. it's also got that song that's on the matrix, but not on the soundtrack, the one in keanu's headphones, 'inertia creeps.' speaking of soundtracks, i think my favorite song that tori's ever done for a soundtrack would be 'happy workers,' which was on the soundtrack to toys, which was a pretty cool movie. you know who i watched that movie with most recently? matt frost. freshman year, in the hanszen tv room. it's weird to think about the person you used to be.

did i mention how i had to write a letter of recommendation for one of my profs the other day? yeah, i bet you don't get to do that too often. she's up for tenure. and i got this email telling me i was one of the people she listed as a reference. i think the references are usually other faculty. but i'm not other faculty. obviously. so i wrote a glowing recommendation, of course, because i really liked her. and i thought she was a good prof. but a good person, too, which is more important. of course, tenure changes things, but like, i don't think they should NOT award tenure to good profs to keep them from getting lazy. it's just one of those things where there's weakness within the system. though i have to say, i haven't had any tenured profs that i felt were really slacking off. but of course, i'm not an s/e. i bet that's where research really takes away from the classroom.

let me just throw this in, this election stuff is crazy. this is the kind of thing i think about as history with a capital H. and we're in the middle of it. and the next generation will be reading about it in textbooks. i think i said that before. but i really think that's a weird feeling.

yay for chris updating his page.

so the powerpuff girls. angie came up with the idea that our apt. should be the powerpuff girls this summer because "there's three of them, and there's three of us....and they're cool and so are we...and the parallels just go on and on..." that's typical angie for you. i laughed so hard. but anyway, yeah, so at the beginning of the semester, angie went out and bought us little powerpuff keychains. mine is buttercup. she has black hair. angie's is blossom. she has brownish hair. lyn's is bubbles. she has blond hair. lyn thinks it sucks that she has to be bubbles. anyway, so we were watching this episode the other night where they have to battle some little boy's imaginary friend. so they have to imagine an imaginary friend to do this for them, because obviously they can't do it themselves. obviously. so they're working on their imaginary friend and they're all contributing ideas. buttercup's like, she should be big and mean and tough. blossom's like, she should be smart and read books and stuff. and bubbles is like, she should be a bunny! and she should wear a green dress! yeah, we made fun of lyn for her stupid input for like, a week. even though she didn't see the episode or actually have any part in writing bubbles' part. it was still funny, though. poor lynyrd. she has to put up with a lot living with me and angie. tough love, that's what i tell her. that, and you only hurt the ones you love.

which isn't true, by the way.

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