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6.19.01 - 1:29

oh, don't complain about it being hot when it is 82 degrees but feels like 81 and it's 89 feels like 92 where you could be. has it ever felt cooler than it actually was? no, never. remember when the water rose up and covered highway 59? i wasn't there.

'oh, do you know you have the face of a genius? '

i could tell you something about how i couldn't fall asleep last night and i laid there awake half-listening to joni mitchell until she wasn't good enough, or maybe it's not a question of being good enough, it's just a question of being right. and then so we put on kate bush just loud enough to not be silent and listened to her, and you know, sometimes, she does yowl, but in a strangely comforting way. also, how many songwriters write about wuthering heights? yeah, that's what i thought.

the frustration gets very painful sometimes when you sit there and you know that it's inside of you, this piece of work, and you just need to spit it out, you just need to make that framework, you just need to let go and hang on and give yourself up to this creative force. so frightening, though. when i think about all the times the words flow through me so quickly that i want to double over, want to fall on the ground, convulsing until it's done, it makes sense that there would be this fear, like there is always fear in a woman's work, in this woman's work.

'i know you have a little life in you yet / i know you have a lot of strength left'

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