8.22.00 - 10:59:25

patience. guns and roses. what a great song. so i stayed up until two last night wasting time. decided i should go to bed. so i did, thinking the insomnia would decide to suddenly disappear. this didn't happen. decided i should read instead of just laying in bed. read. read a LOT. kept trying to go to sleep about every half an hour. didn't work. i think the last time i looked at the clock it was 7:30. there is NOTHING more miserable than lying in bed at 5:30 in the morning, chanting to yourself 'sleep, sleep, sleep, SLEEP DAMMIT!' except for doing it at 7:30. woke up at 9. no sleepies all day. and this is my new life. the one where i'm superman and only need to sleep every other week or so. it's sorta cool, i guess. decided i didn't want to go to work. so i didn't. packed up a lot of stuff. now we're listening to the violent femmes. kiss off. ok, so i'll do this when there's nothing exciting in my life. listen to mp3s and type a running commentary on exactly what these songs mean to me. except this song doesn't really mean anything specific to me. i guess it stirs memories of the few times i was up at baker 4th this year and the sing-a-long songs. i guess. either that or hey, that's my bike with ethan hawke in reality bites, even though they sang add it up. dude, that was mean. like, seriously mean.

i wish i could see about five years into the future. just so i'd know that in the end everything works out. i mean, i guess deep down inside i still do believe that everything will be ok in the end. i mean, why shouldn't it be? like, no matter what, i end up with a degree from rice, even if it IS an english degree, which everyone tells me is useless. whatever. i'll go to med school. or law school. or grad school. hell, i'm not getting into this again. this is why i need that five years into the future.

ok, so randomly wandering around the web, i've recently discovered that all the bloggers i read regularly are all like, friends with each other. this is so weird. like, i arrived at each site independently and only later decided to check out their links, and ooh! they all link to each other. like, seriously bizarre. ok, maybe not that bizarre, but at two thirty in the morning, it bordered on profound.

one day i wanna be a rock star.

ugh. kws. please don't go. and i PUT this song on this playlist. ohhhh. because it's my love gone wrong playlist. and with a title like please don't go, you're an automatic in. but um, let's see what's next. ah. save ferris. goodbye. it's like, the best dumping song ever. well, maybe not ever, but ska makes stuff sound cool.

example: "goodbye, i never want to see you again, goodbye, i don't want to be your friend."

yeah, i know. but she makes it sound COOL.

previous - next